Running with the Hayneses

Patience, Peace and Happiness

 

As I was biking home from work one day this week, I did some serious thinking about what kind of an impact this long-term injury is having on my life. Obviously my “new normal” is very different from what I am used to and from what I would prefer it to be, but just because it is different doesn’t mean it has to be bad. I asked myself what I needed to do in order to purposefully seek to make this a good experience, and I kept coming back to three main things.

1. Patience

I’m 6.5 weeks into this injury now, and I am quite sure I’ve got at least that many more to go. During the last couple of weeks especially, as I’ve waited for various appointments with various specialists, it has seemed like nothing could happen fast enough and no one had the least sense of the urgency I was feeling. Case in point: I have an appointment to get an MRI on my foot today, but I won’t get the results until next Tuesday. I’m learning that for the sake of my own sanity, I need to stop rushing and just wait patiently.

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2. Peace

Worry and anxiety have also plagued me as I stress over whether or not I’m going to be able to run the races I’ve signed up for. I’ve realized that in order to be free from that inner turmoil I need to do two things: first, I need to let go of my compulsion to control this situation and trust that God has a plan for me and will guide me through, and second, I need to let go of my plans and accept that missing a few races is not a big deal in the long run (pun intended :) ). In doing this (a little bit at a time), I have found a sense of peace gradually replacing the constant worry.

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3. Happiness

The biggest thing that I want to come from this injury is to learn how to be happy in even the worst circumstances. Not just to accept the facts and move on, not just to most the most of what I’ve got, but to be genuinely HAPPY in all things. I also want to be happy for others, specifically those who are out there doing the things that I wish I could be doing. The alternative is to be bitter and jealous, and I want no part of that. Instead of grumping my way through this injury, I am going to choose to seek out happiness.

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Super Housewife

 

Yesterday I had the day off from work AND training! I rarely have a day off that isn’t mostly consumed by workouts, so when I do, I make the most of it and become a super housewife! I hardly ever do housework during the week, and on the weekends, I’m so tired from my long runs, swims, and bike rides that I just do the bare minimum of cleaning. So yesterday was my chance to finally catch up on everything.

All I had to do for training was strength training–I did T25! Once I finished that, I immediately turned on the streaming for The Boston Marathon! I watched it from start to finish for both the women’s and men’s field. While I was watching, I replied to emails and did some grading for my classes. I’d say I was very productive!

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Once the marathon ended, I knew I had to get to work. I cleaned the house, washed the dishes, and did the laundry in just a couple of hours. After that, I went to the BMV to renew my license. :) When I got home, I thought I’d be super helpful to my husband and mow the lawn for the first time this year! Unfortunately, I didn’t check the tires before starting the lawn mower, and I quickly realized (after getting stuck in a hole) that one of the tires was COMPLETELY flat. Oops..

Thankfully, a motorist saw me trying to lift the lawn mower out of the hole, and he stopped to help me. We quickly discovered that the tire was a goner, and he helped me jack it up and take the tire off. I then called John, and he was able to stop and buy a new tire on his way home from work.

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The lawn didn’t get mowed, but while I was waiting for John, I weeded ALL the flower beds around our house! Like I said, I went into super housewife-mode! See what I can accomplish when I take just one day off from work and training? :) Now back to training today. I’m a little sore from weeding, so running should be interesting. :)

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Remembering Our Day At The Boston Marathon

 

In 2010 my sister and my husband and I signed up to run the Around the Lake Marathon together, where we hoped to qualify for Boston. It was only our second marathon, and we thought it was pretty unlikely that we’d all get a BQ in the same race, but that was our best-case-scenario goal. At that time my sisters and I needed a time of 3:40 or better, and Peter needed at least 3:10. Our first marathon the year before took us 4:15 to finish (the four of us stayed together for the entire race), so we needed a serious PR in order to BQ.

Well, we got that BQ–all four of us, and in 2011 we were in Boston on Patriots Day. That race was probably the most memorable race I’ve ever done, especially since I got to do it with my husband and my sisters. I hope to someday go back and do it again with the WHOLE family. Since I look back on that day with such fond memories, I thought I’d share some of them with you today.

207989_10150163716164508_1568257_n (1)We drove down to Boston on Sunday afternoon to pick up our bibs and go to the expo. We couldn’t have been more proud! :)

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We spent Sunday evening at the pre-race dinner (great food!), and then stayed in a nearby hotel for the night.

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On the morning of the race we were up bright and early to catch the bus to the athlete’s village!

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We had to wait in the village for about an hour (maybe more?). It seemed like forever because we were FREEZING!!! Peter got to leave sooner because he was in the first wave and the three of us girls were in the second.

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Finally, we were called to make our way to the start line (about a mile away) along with thousands of other runners. Hearing the starting gun go off filled us with adrenaline and all 8,000 of us surged down the road like a tidal wave.

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It was hard to hold ourselves back in all the excitement, but thankfully it took awhile for the tight pack to thin out (like 4 or 5 miles!), so that kept us from going out too fast.

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Our parents and Jared were waiting for us at mile 16, and they snagged this great shot of us flying by! ;) (That’s Hannah on the far right there, and me following behind her. :) ) The three of us tried to stay together, but by the halfway point Sarah was tiring, so Hannah and I went on ahead while she continued at a more manageable pace.

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Sarah came along soon after, and they got a better picture of her. :)

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We saw our faithful fans again at mile 25, and by that point all three of us had split up. Hannah was dying on the Newton hills, so she told me to go on without her.

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Sarah was a ways further back and hurting quite a bit, but she still managed to smile for a picture!

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Hannah and I finished within minutes of each other in 3:33 and 3:39, and we had a happy reunion in the finish chute. Peter had finished long before us in 2:58, and Sarah came in shortly after us in 3:58. We all managed, after some confusion, to locate our drop bags and reunite with each other and the rest of the fam in the family meeting area.

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We were totally exhausted and SO sore, but also very proud and happy. It’s a race I’ll remember all my life, and one that will always be special because of the good memories we made there together. I hope that everyone running and spectating there today will come away feeling the same way. Good luck to you all!

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Hannah wrote a post about her Boston memories today as well. You can check it out on her blog, Stedge Racing.

Weekly Training Update: 04/20/14

 

Thank you all so much for your encouraging comments on Friday’s post. I have been touched and uplifted when otherwise I might have sunk into a black mood and spent the weekend feeling sorry for myself.

For those who don’t know, there still hasn’t been any progress in the healing and recovery department. My physical therapist, says that it looks like we are dealing with something more than just cuboid syndrome since I’m not seeing any improvement after two weeks of treatment. In order to get a more accurate diagnosis, she’s sending me back to the orthopedic to get an MRI. She couldn’t speculate on what the actual problem might be, but she suspects that the only answer at this point is to stay completely off my foot for a number of weeks, since just cutting out running hasn’t made any difference. I think I’m in for a very unpleasant experience, but I’m ready to just get it over with as soon as possible.

It’s been a very discouraging week as I went from thinking that the problem had been identified and was being fixed to finding out that I’m no closer to healing now than I was 6 weeks ago when this all began. I kept up my training in the way that I thought was best at the time, but it may look very different from now on. Here’s a look back:

Sunday: Rest

Monday: Bike Commute (23 Miles)

I biked to work and then to my physical therapy appointment. I had a disheartening session with my PT–the words “walking boot” were thrown around as the next possible course of treatment. I came home determined to do EVERYTHING I could to avoid that outcome, so I decided not to do T25 this week with the hope that cutting out all enjoyable impact activities would make a difference.

Tuesday: Yoga 1.5 Hrs.

I didn’t get to bike on Tuesday because it was raining, so my only option for a workout that afternoon was yoga. I decided to make it count and did all three of my running yoga videos back-to-back. It was surprisingly difficult, and I was sore the next day!

Wednesday: Bike Commute (16 Miles) + Swim 1 Hr.

The rain turned to snow overnight, and we woke up to a winter-like (?) wonderland! It was only 26 degrees that morning, but I was feeling a little crazy (read: the lack of running was getting to me!), so I rode my bike to work anyways. Most exhilarating ride ever!

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I didn’t do my typical brick workout this week because I had a chiropractor appointment after work, so I went to the gym later that night to swim.

Thursday: Bike Commute (23 Miles)

It was 25 degrees on Thursday morning, but if I can do it once, I can do it again! It’s really not that bad except that I wish I had a pair of windproof pants–my legs are the only part that gets cold. Another PT appointment after work, where I got the news that I’d been mostly expecting: I needed to go back to the ortho. :/

Friday: Bike Commute (16 Miles) + T25 Dynamic Core + Rip’t Circuit

25 degrees again–will spring ever come back to us?! And I know I said that I decided not to do T25 anymore, but at this point I felt that it could hardly do any harm since you can’t have a setback if you haven’t made any progress yet. I did the low-impact version and that felt fine on my foot. I didn’t get much of a cardio workout, but it was still a good strength workout.

Saturday: Long Ride (29 Miles) + T25 Stretch

Peter and I had a great long ride together! We found a route that’s not too bumpy and has lots of hills–good training for IM Syracuse! I’m expecting that it was probably my last ride for awhile, but I’m willing do whatever it takes to get this foot to heal!

Training Totals:

I biked 107 miles this week, swam 1.5 miles and did 3 yoga and 3 T25 workouts. I’m happy with what I’ve been able to do so far, in spite of missing out on so much. This weekend was the second 50K trail race that I would have run if I hadn’t been injured, and I have withdrawn from the first race of the Granite State Trail Series on April 27th. I’m nervous about what’s in store for the next few weeks, but it is what it is, and I know the time will pass quickly (even if at times it seems like an eternity). I’ll keep you updated on what develops as the week goes on.

 

Five Injured Runner Problems

 

I haven’t run for 4 weeks now, and in a lot of ways I’ve come to terms with my situation and am making the most of it. There are times though when I succumb to one of the many problems that plague all injured runners. These are my top five nemeses right now:

1. Jealousy

I have to admit, I have a hard time listening to other people talk about their runs.

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2. Lack of Motivation

Why is it that I have no problem making meals and keeping the house clean when I’m running 50 miles a week, but don’t want to do anything but lay on the couch when I’m injured?

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3. Mental Instability

Thankfully I am still able to bike and swim, which keeps the craziness to a minimum. My husband is grateful for this, too. :)

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4. Mental Anguish

Enough said.

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5. Anger

If I think about all that I’m missing out of in terms of running and racing, I can definitely get pretty mad. I try to avoid this train of thought and just focus on the things that I can do.

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6. BONUS (just to keep things light)

Does anyone else feel like a shower is kind of pointless if you don’t do a sweaty workout first? ;)

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Anyone else injured right now?

How long has it been since you last ran?

 

 

An Injury Is An Opportunity To Learn A Valuable Lesson

 

You know you’re in trouble when your physical therapist admits that she’s at her wit’s end. Mine literally told me that if my foot isn’t any better by the end of this week, then probably my only option is to go back to the orthopedic for a walking boot. I think I went through about a hundred different emotions as I tried to process this news–disbelief, hopelessness, worry, desperation, frustration, depression. I guess I was pretty much at my wit’s end, too.

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The most frustrating thing (warning: rant ahead) is that I can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. Even after all this time, I don’t seem to be any closer to recovery, and no one seems to have any answers. I’ve been mis-diagnosed by the ortho, and I’ve gone through 2 weeks of physical therapy that has had no effect whatsoever. I’ve endured weeks of pain, missed 2 (so far) races, shelled out $$$ for multiple specialist visits and suffered a 2-month (at least) setback in my training. And after all that my injured foot is, if anything, worse than ever.

Yesterday in a last ditch effort I went to my chiropractor to have him try to adjust my foot. The PT has tried several times to do this, but the area is so tight and inflamed now that she couldn’t get the cuboid to budge. I had high hopes that the chiro would come through for me, and that once I left his office I’d be on my way to a speedy recovery. No such luck. He thought he got it realigned, but whether he did or not, I’m still in just as much  pain. I go back to the PT today, and I don’t know what’s going to happen next.

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It took me awhile to figure out the moral of this story, but over the last few days I’ve come to realize that every injury and every setback is a learning experience, and I need to look for the lessons that I’m being taught through this trial. It’s been almost unbearable for me to think of all the wasted time and money, but now I know that it’s only wasted if I fail to learn something valuable. I’ve often said that running has made me a better person. I hope that I will be able to say the same of this injury when all is said and done.

 

My First Run Post-Marathon

 

Yesterday morning, I did my first real run since my marathon last Sunday! I took a week off of running after the race to rest and recover and am now resuming my normal routine this week. I say it was my first “real” run because on Sunday, I did my typical 15-minute run after my long ride, but in my mind, a 2-mile run hardly counts as a run. :)

I woke up Monday morning feeling super tired (my husband has been snoring a lot lately, so I haven’t been sleeping well :/ ), and I seriously considered just going back to sleep. However, I told myself that if I didn’t get my run in that morning, I wouldn’t have a chance to run again till Thursday. That got me out of bed! :)

I wasn’t sure how my legs would feel since I was super sore and tired after my race. During my biking and swimming workouts, I’ve felt fine, and I was pretty sure that I was fully recovered, but it’s always hard to know until you actually get out and RUN!  My scheduled workout for Monday was 3 repeats of 8 minutes at half-marathon pace (for me that’s 6:59-6:23 min/mile). For fresh legs, this would be a piece of cake. For a recovering marathoner, I wasn’t sure. John told me to just start off with one repeat and adjust the workout depending on how it felt.

During my warm-up I was feeling pretty sluggish. (The 2 inches of snow we got over night didn’t help any! Side complaint: On Sunday, I ran in shorts and a sports bra. Two days later: Full tights, running jacket, hat, and gloves!!)

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The view out my back door on Monday morning.

Anyway, since I wasn’t feeling super perky, I decided I’d probably stick with 2 repeats and call it a day. I did my first one at 6:48 pace (the wind was at my back, so it was easy). I turned around and headed back for my second one. The wind was now a full on headwind, so I was nervous about how I’d do. I finished it with a 6:50 average pace though and still felt decent. Since I still had some energy after these two, I decided to complete the workout by doing the third repeat. This one I had a mix of headwind and crosswind, and even a hill, but I averaged a 6:43 pace for it! Not bad for 9 days post-marathon!

I was noticeably more tired than I typically would be for that kind of workout, but it looks like I won’t have any problem jumping back into my regular training.

Are any of you recovering from a race or injury and working back into your normal training routine? How is it going?

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